Our journey to how we got pregnant isn't nearly as exciting as some, but for us it is beautifully unique, just like our little one
|This is a typical family photo of the three of us|
For those that know me, you know that I live in a constant state of
After my body had been through hell and back with the miscarriage, and my finishing the half marathon, I figured me being over a week late was just residual effects from either of those things.
So the end of September rolls around, and once i realized how late i actually was, I took a pregnancy test on a whim one morning before work (on September 26th, actually). The normal time to wait for the results is 3 minutes, but within 15 seconds, we had a strong positive. Feeling the effect of holycrapI'mpregnant, i sat down on the side of bathtub so i didnt fall over, and once i had collected myself, I looked again just to make sure. There it was- positive. Seeing those two lines was such a rush! after having to take test after test to confirm the miscarriage hormones had passed from my system completely, seeing those two lines.. no words! SO many emotions in that moment, but the rational side of me had to keep me breathing. I thought that surely it was a mistake but again, the rational side of me knew better (you dont get false positives, thats just a myth).
Since i hadn't anticipated taking the test, and most definitely didnt expect seeing the positive result, ihad taken the test in the morning before I went to work, and B had already gone. Seeing how quickly it turned positive completely threw me for a loop and while I was absolutely thrilled, a small part of me worried it was residual hormones from the miscarriage just a short while ago. I made it to work with this amazing news, called my doctor's office and let them know I was pregnant, and asked what we should do next. I voiced my fears of it not being a legit positive, and after a brief disussion with the nurse, she confirmed it was a new slew of hormones and that i was in fact pregnant (squeee!), took my initial health info and got me scheduled for an ultrasound later that week.
Knowing I had this amazing news to share with B but couldn't share it just yet was torture! I knew that i needed to do things right and tell him better than I had the first time around (yes, I failed miserably at being all creative with this the first time around). Case in point- he had been working nights at the time and came in the door after I had taken the test. I was preparing to head out the door to run to work (literally.run. - I was still training for the half at that time) and had taken a test because i was a few days late. I had no idea we would get the positive that morning, and when he walked in the door, i had the test behind my back, and pulled it out with tears in my eyes and a big smile on my face and handed it to him to process. He looked at me and asked if we were pregnant and I said 'yes', and you can assume how the rest of it went. of course the moment was special in its own awesome way, but it was sort of anticlimactic and i felt bad for that.
Knowing full well i had to step it up and do things right this time, I came up with an idea that was 100% us, and i
After a few happy tears and another
Trying to figure out how to tell our parents was another task in itself. We knew we needed the support system in place immediately, just in case we experienced another devistating loss, but wanted it to be special for both sets of Grandparents, so we got to thinking, and came up with unique ways to tell both sets.
Gma and Gpa Dobbs travel a fair amount, and for them we made some customized airplane and show tickets. My dad caught on first, and once my mom got it a few seconds later, hugs and tears ensued.
Like I mentioned before, this pregnancy has been amazing. No morning sickness to speak of, no major migraines, leg cramps, or any of the other symptoms you often read about. Our doctor has been amazing and often reassures me that the ease of this pregnancy is repayment for the one that we lost, and while that's a good way to look at it, we know that this little one growing in my belly is completely unique and a blessing all on its' own. Don't get me wrong- i know just how lucky i am and count my blessings every day, but how awesome its all been makes me a little hesitant to even think of having more than one- what if the next pregnancy is by the book, but in the exactly opposite/horrible way?! we'll cross that bridge later..
So in a nutshell, that is how we got to our present state. Two kids in love, with our crazy dog by our side, and a wonderfully supportive family behind us, we are so looking forward to this next step in our lives. If only i could see into the future to find out how it ends up.. For now, i'll take the fact that I can't see my feet as a sign to stop worrying, stop looking down, and look to the future and enjoy wherever it takes us. :)